It’s the day before New Years Eve, time to think of a good resolutioin. I think this year I will make the resolution to follow my faith a little bit more. Before you continue reading no matter what religion you follow, I mean NO DISRESPECT whatsoever. When I was growing up I only did as my parents taught me to do. Go to Church EVERY Sunday. Keep the Sabath Holy, that’s what I was taught. Waking up 9am every Sunday to be at Church by 10am. One hour a week that’s all God wanted from me which is what I was told. Being 20 now, I have learnt that there is more to keeping the Faith than going to Church. Doing onto others as I would expect done to me, treating others as I would like to be treated and loving others as I would like to be loved. Do not expect anything, be it treatment or a material asset of some sort unless you expect yourself to give the same. I lost a lot of that over the last 4 years but this New Years Eve I will promise myself and God that I will be more faithful towards myself, my family and God Himself. I don’t remember the last time I sat in my bed before I went to sleep and prayed. I don’t remember the last time I thanked God for what I was given. I don’t remember the last time I sat and talked to God one on one. All I remember is how precious and complete I felt when I believed God was next to me in all my decisions life. How good I felt just being alive. I want that feeling back, I NEED that feeling back. What I have lost in my last 4 years of life is too much to say or too much to count on my fingers. The last weeks of my life I have gained one of the most .. I should say THE most beautiful feeling…Love. My baby I loveeeeee youuuuuu, I adoreeeeee you I simply trust and believe in you. People say I’m not good enough for you but all their words fade, because no words or actions they say or make can even compare to yours. I have a song I’d like to share with you now…dedicated to my sexy babycakes.

I never believed in dreaming, it never got me very far

I never believed that love could find me like an arrow to my heart

I never believed in miracles or building castles in the air

Not until I found you, I turned around and you were there

From the day you came you gave me a whole new point of view

I’ve been touched by an angel

It’s impossible but true

I believe in you

I swear that forever from today that no one will ever take your place

I believe in you

And I believe our love will last always

I never believed in fairy tales, though sometimes I wish I could

I never believed that gold sandals could ever find their perfect foot

I never believed in magic or that wishes could come true

But your very first kiss changed all this something only you could do

You made me believed you made me trust again

You showed me there’s a pot of gold at every rainbows end

Only LOVE can set you free

And if you give yourself to fate

And you’re my destiny

Now I know

Now I see

Anything can happen

If you just believe

You may ask what does he have to do with my faith or my new years resolution. He has every bit to do with it. I believe God sent him to me. The special gift, the one that makes me feel complete once again, the one that makes me feel like a little girl again. This feeling came so fast I know it did and maybe I fell in love with him too soon. But I know one thing and that is a feeling I have never felt. I feel so precious and so much at peace with his words alone. If this ends I just know I’ll hurt badly again but I know also that it will be well worth it. It’s late now and I should really get to bed but leave you with one last thought and a poem that has been my motivation since I was little girl. Love feels like the sweetest dream come true.

One night a man had a dream. He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonged to him and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.

This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it. "LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."

The LORD replied, "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then that I carried you".

TruSt In ThE LorD AbOve FoR He WiLL SeE YoU ThrOuGh All YoUr HeaRtAcHe AnD SoRRoW AnD BrINg FoRtH To YoU A BriGhT, NeW DaY…Quote from moi ;)